Orkut sux..but not always

Everybody says orkut sux..n I agree with this but some times if you are fortunate enough u get some good things also.

I was reading Simmy’s( one of my friends friend) profile n I found this

One of Mother Teresa’s poems

People are often unreasonable; illogical, and self centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God;
It was never between you and them, Anyways..!!!

So she( Simmy) says that she always try to live up to it…but I don’t understand one thing. How cud some one do that. You know I also tried something like this but could never do. People just cheat because that’s what they do. Nobody will understand you.
But the poem seems so good. As if everything is so simple so easy. You do everything according to this poem any be happy.

Today I had chat with some of my friends n they said I always speak of moral but some times I also go off road, they are right I do some things which I regret afterwards n after reading the above poem I reckon I can at least try, let see what comes up.

Thanks simmy( she doesn't even know me but had helped me in some way!!)

Move on....

I am all alone in campus right now. Everybody left by the time I came back.
When you have something you don’t care abt it n when you don’t you worry about getting it back. why it happens like this, When u need your friends most they are not there for you n when you don’t need them they will be all around you.
Life is so complicated, it’s like SENSEX, some times bull run n some times bear.
People are always batting on something or the other but they never know what exactly they want. And even if some people know what they want they can’t get it because price is too high or risk factor is very much or some times stock is not available at all.
So what can be done just wait, keep track of every thing around and when time comes bet your shot( am I writing about life or stock market?)

People say move on and they are off course right about that but people who say so never got into any of these situations and people who went through this wont tell u anything because they are not in the position and they know there is no solution.
But listen to this. Have u ever thought about person because of whom you are feeling so miserable (sorry you are actually thinking about him only all the time)? Hasn’t he moved on? Hasn’t he has all new friends? Yeah he does and you should also do the same. This is no difficult, just bear one thing in mind that you should not bear any thing in mind( ;)).

I just came across this ( read it aloud)

Figure it out for yourself, my lad,
You've all that the greatest of men have had;
Two arms, two hands, two legs, two eyes,
And a brain to use if you would be wise,
With this equipment they all began--
So start from the top and say, I CAN.
----------------- NOT BY ME!


So think abt it..n move on ;)

What M I doing?

I really don’t understand y m I like this?
I ll do things which I know I sud not.do. like just worrying abt one person who does not even give me a damn abt me…I think I m gonna be mad.
Why do I do this..when every thing is clear…when I know nothing is going to happen..
I m scared that I might do sth..cant just god give me sth else to think abt?
There r thousand other ppl who think abt me ..
Amit, Manoj, Ankur,upendra,Rohit, my family n even my friends family but I m such an asshole.
I know that I have agreed to not discuss it nemore, not talk abt it nemore but Who the hell will tell me how to do that. It all so funny everybody in running behind somebody else u care abt ppl who care abt some other ppl but u..
Neway wat can be done..it’s always like this, u cant get wat u want when it’s not in ur hand. So finally I have to convince myself that I m happy, I have to show everybody that I m happy but I only know how pleased I m.

Truth of Love

Have you ever thought about love?
I always wonder how two people could be in love. What do you mean by love after all?
Just being together for some time say a year or two and enjoying? Spending time and knowing what other person’s likes and dislikes are? How he/she reacts with a particular situation and how the other one support him/her when they are depressed? Taking care of somebody when you are together and giving hopes to each other?

This is what love is all about?
You know what I feel? I feel when you spend time with somebody, irrespective of what the other person is, he will be having some good qualities and he will be lacking in some areas. And when you get along you see where we can share thing? Where we can help each other? And this starts with so called “FRIENDSHIP” then after god knows when this friendship goes to something else …

But point is not what do we do when we are together but what do we do when we get separated. Slowly everything goes into vain, your so called friends or whatever finds some other “GOOD” friends and who knows that one of those friends might be having better qualities then you have!!!
I am not saying this is the only case, some times there are other situations when nobody can help you out, but here just saying that “we don’t have any other option but to forget each other” does not make any sense. We all have good and bad times and when we are happy we decide this thing needs to be done, we know what gives us harmony and when bad time comes we see difficulties in going along with old thoughts 

Shall we think about past, shall we worry about future or shall we just live like as we have lived when we were together? We all know that what we should do but nobody does that..we just think, worry instead of living and we lose all our live doing so. Can’t we just live in present, be happy , be together and think of nothing.

I know we can’t because we don’t have the guts to face the truth, the truth that we are just doing what everybody else wants and not what we want. We don’t even listen to our hearts, we just go along with the wind of negative thought and that is all..everything is over…over

The others

Why talk about others?
I know what sort of person I am, as told by some of my friends I am bit extrovert, I talk a lot but I talk a lot about others what has somebody done, what is somebody doing and blah blah but why do I do that? This problem ( it seems like a problem to me ) is not only with me but lots of people do that and the reason being none! What do people have this attitude, can’t they just be happy with their own work? The people who know me and reading this might be in shock that why he is talking about it! But seriously if I have done some mistake then I thing you should learn from it. More specifically learn from others mistake because you cant do those all yourself…
What else ..wrote this stuff yesterday and posting it today…bit late in everything 

What to do?

I m going through a strange situation now a days…I don’t know what to do. I had some planes or better to say that I thought that something should happened in some manner but after talking to somebody I feel that things are not like before anymore.

If I use my mind then it seems very straight but I don’t do that and things get complicated. I don’t understand what is the problem with me? It has been long time now but still I am in the same mess just can’t leave it at ones.

I always wonder why things to wrong? Specially, when you have thought that something will happen in a particular manner and it does not happen. From last some days, I am not at all feeling comfortable. There are several reasons of it like having a lot of work( when you don’t want to do that), not having enough time to do what I like, and all same things day in day out, and most of all same old stuff which I am unable to forget. I want change; I want to do something which gives me relief, serenity, peace but problem is that I don’t know what I want, I don’t know what gives me harmony.

So for a change, I m incorporating some changes in my daily life;

1) Wont watch romantic movies (romance sucks).
2) Wont play age( that sucks too).
3) Will read and write blogs indeed.
4) Will be bit quite
5) Just mind my own business rather then taking about others.
6) And will make sure that I don’t think of past(just for a change)

That’s all for today..

First Job Dream Job

So finally I got a job …that also not in a software firm ..but a financial company (Futures First) and u know I ll be doing trading in futures and options ….it’s awesome…not because I like trading ..but because …if I loose out sth …then it wont be my money( just kidding)


Here r the details of my interview..

Q)He asked me abt my background
A) I told him that I was from Bhopal and I have done my whole education there only.

Q)biggest achievement in life.
A)Getting into IIIT Hyderabad bcos it is the dream of most of the ppl and
only few can make it.

Q)Ne where u have failed in ur life?
A) I said, Not failed in ne thing but I m in the process of learning
English as till my intermediate my education was in Hindi and when I came
here then only I started English...blah..blah ...he said ur English is
quite good and he was very impressed with me(I thought so) :)

Q)Why do u want to join FF?
A)I told him I have very deep interest in finance n this is the only
company which provides me the opportunity to trade and I love that...

Q)How did u hear abt us?
A)I said from placement officer and one of my friend from DAIICT.
then some crap on what did he say...blah...blah

Q)U score was good at first test ...how much time wud u take to solve the
rest?
A)I said there r 10 ques left ...I 1 min..then he asked me to solve ...I
could solve only 6 :(

Q)Do u take risk? tell me some instance?
A)I told his abt that I have invested in mutual funds, but he said that
mutual fund is least risky thing ..I said, because I invest one third of my
salary ..without ne proper training in finance thus it is a risk for me,
then he asked me lots of question on my investment ....I guess u wont be
interest in that ;=? I also told him that I get RA ship in IIIT and he
asked me abt the funda of RA ship....

Q)He gave me one no to remember ..12 digit no. (My memory is very weak
..but I tried my best to remeber it.

Q) What other companies visited in IIIT? what was ur dream option?
A) I told him abt comp and I said my dream option was DE shaw...then some
discussion on that...then I told him that some interest ppl will
also go to morgan stanly..he asked me if I wud go?
I said if I dont get into FF then I ll go ...so he said that if u get into
FF then wud u go for DE shaw of FF...I said no I wont becaues then will be
giving me some software work ...but I m actually not intereste in that...

Q)So if u dont get selected in FF that wat will u do?
A) I'll try off-campus in FF(by this I mean that I loved the work
and that is why I m so desperate for FF)...but he said u can not apply in FF
if u had been rejected ones.....

Q)finally he asked my wat was the no. I gave u initially?
A)By this time I almost forgotten the no..but some how I could remember 11
digit out of 12...Ever I was amazed by that....

some more general question were there but I cant remind all of them....

Harry Potter and GOF

Harry Potter and GOF,
     We all went to HP n GOF today…If movie was good then trip was awesome because we also went to Birla temple..could not spend much of our time out there as we were late 4 movie ( ( I was not sure what was more important).
     What else, nothing much done till now…I need to prepare 4 placements but I don’t get time…I guess same is the situation with everybody else also(at least I hope so ().
     

First time!!

hi folks,
so I m also online now!
I use to write personal diary till now :( but I guess being in IIIT HYD and writing a personal diary is kinda unrealistic...so here I m...and I hope I ll enjoy this...